Sunday, December 31, 2006
time flies. it's finally the last day of the year. and it's usually when all the families or friends come together to count down. =) i'll be with my family at raffles country club for dinner and then i'll meet my friends at city hall. wheee!!
ok. this is my last post for this blog. i'll summarise everything. haha.
family.
all these while, my mum and sister have been very supportive of me. they encourage me and at times, they respect my decision. however, at one period of time, mum didn't support me. i guess that was when she gave up on me. but, yeah. things are better now. relationship with daddy is still the same. i'm never close to him. and all we talk is about school work and that's all. my maid! haha. she is just like a family member to me. she's been with me for 16, going 17 years. haha. yaps. since i was 6 months old. that's explain why i'm so scare of her. and whatever i think of doing, she'll know it. she knows me better than my mum though. freaky. =x my relationship with sis is getting better, though there are times when she gets on my nerve. haha. =x
studies.
since primary, i've always been a lazy bum. i'm satisfied easily. i guess this point, i got to change. but, anyway, i became a little more hardworking when i came into MJR. haha. in sec 2, relatives love to compare me with my sis. and i was determined to prove them that i can do whatever my sis can. and i worked harder to get into triple science. when my end year results wasn't up to my expectation, i was really disappointed. but, it turns out that i manage to get into triple science. haha. i was struggling with my studies then. especially i was rather involve with both prefectorial board and choir. but i did my best to achieve the best i can. but, my entire sec 3 result, l1r5, was 29,28,27,29. haha. it sucks, i know. then came sec 4. i slacked alot. and i wasn't as hard working as sec 3. i was so looking forward for montage to be over so that i can really concentrate. however, even after montage, i wasn't working hard. my result didn't really improve much. l1r5, 29,35,23. hahas. and right now, i'm waiting for my Os result. i'm expecting the worse cause i didn't even put in all my effort. and i regret it. too bad, it's too late. haha.
friends.
i love my friends. cause they are always there for me. joanna, min min, hui kia, valerie, boon, feng yao, sheldon, tedja, jian zong(buddy) and yu ker are my sec 1 and sec 2 friends. i love them lots. feng yao and sheldon are always making me laugh. especially with their dirty jokes. haha. i remember during lessons, i'll always look at feng yao. haha. =x joanna is my best friend, also known as my les mate. haha. we often go for duty together. valerie is my mummy! always nagging at me to work hard and always teaching me. haha. then min min,hui kia and crystal would always hang out together whenever we go out. haha.
mae, silin(sotong), san, qy, sh, xl, buddy, pan sihui, yk, jordan, valerie, crystal, puay, boon, potato, eve, aunty, leonad, ah fat, glenn, tan teck(uncle santa) and many others then came into my life. haha. friends like them totally rock my world. even when lessons are boring, they made it interesting. haha. they made 4E rocks totally. haha. love you all. ^^
jc(angel), sy, alex, yu ren, avril, peiyi, heng yu, wee kiat, toh wee, kaiyi, teck kiang, sasa, leelin, cai ling, christine, jared, dum(ah boi), jared chong, bomba and many others are friends and seniors that taught me many things. and i totally love them. haha.
more new friends while working, yan wen, yvonne, ting hui, pui man, dylan, chan gap. haha. work will be boring without them. and dylan rocks! haha. yeah. he craps with me online. haha. and he sounds like an older brother to me. cool. =)
once in awhile, i have primary school friends contacting me. people like zhi hao, joshua, venron, aloysius, clarissa, serene, jun jun and ke xin. =)
relationship.
i'm not sure if i'm a horrible stead or that i'm just too young. haha. anyway, i had 2 failed relationships this year. but anyway, it's good to see that they will live better without me. hahas. cause there are much better girls out there. at least we're still friends. wish that you'll be happier with the next girl in your life and all the best. woots.
well well. time to pack up everything and close this blog. =) it's all over. and it'll all be history. =)
specially for angel: i remembered, when i first know you in mawaii camp, you look so dao and so damn quiet. quite scary though. then realise that you aren't actually the way you look. haha. after knowing you for a long time, then i know that you are so.... =x wheee. what a wonderful senior you are, who taught me many things. just like a brother, you comfort me whenever i was down. and gave me a pat when i needed encouragement. will never forget how you and sy consoled me when i cried in the prefect room after receving my chinese Os result early this year. will never forget the fun you brought along during camps like mawaii and obbd. will never forget how you crap with me whenever i was bored. especially during fahmy's lesson. haha! will never forget how you listen to me when i had many things bottled inside. haha. you treated me just like a real sister. ^^ you totally rock man! hahas.
done blogging.
-i'll learn to love this life of mine. wheee!!-
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♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:57 AM
30th dec. so fast. the year is coming to an end. haha.
woke up like 10 plus. i was freaking bored. so i picked up a storybook to read. after lunch, i was freaking sleepy, so i went to sleep. and my sis woke up me in a very abrupt way. "mei! someone talking to you online." then i faster wake up. reflex action. -.-" in the end, i couldn't sleep back. but i force myself. haha. and i slept till like 5. then i watch tv till 5.30 and went to prepare. and left house at 5.50.
went to pasir ris to fetch crystal. on my way, i bought bubble tea. i think the honey too sweet that it attracted alot of bees. =x then went to crystal's work place. haha. the young lady thought i come to take over her. cause i took over once. hah. anyway, i bought 3 pairs of earrings. then we went off. went to white sand. we bought 2 chocolates. we wanted 40g each. but the lady gave us 20g each. -.-" then i bought 2 pendants. haha. nice!
went to marina bay to meet xl, sotong, and ah fat. then took shuttle bus to the steamboat area. each of us got free can drink. haha. anyway, we started cooking. and xl pass me my bottle of nite. i was like, siao! how to finish? so i shared with ah fat. haha. they poured me a cup. and xl had hooch la. wah lao!! his hooch is like damn freaking nice!! whee. haha. nite wasn't that bad. it taste like lime soda. i drank like a few sips and my face was damn freaking red. and xl commented that it would be good if his daughter is like that. then he would know if she drank or not. o.0 hahas. crystal scold xl for buying. =x in the end, xl gave crystal my cup. and they don't let me drink. -.-" i was like damn high la. and i kept laughing. each time see ah fat's face, i laugh. haha. the more i laugh, the redder i get. -.-" hahas. crystal so scare to go toilet with me. =x oh well. went to eat ice cream. and my redness went down. haha. then went to play this picture hunt game at the bowling alley there. haha. we keep wanting to beat this old man. and nearly la. so we put our nick as old man's wife. haaha. =x after that, we took shuttle bus back to marina bay mrt. haha. then in the train, ah fat squeeze me, xl squeeze crystal. and we only sit like half of the seat la. -.-"
oh. i was msging angel. haha. i told him i drank and my face is red and don't know how to go home. he didn't really understand what i was typing. =x then i kid with him. i ask him to send me home. haha. ok ok. i'm too bored. ehs! i'm not drunk. i'm just.. red. ><
so here i am. haha. tml going to granny's birthday dinner then meeting them at city hall mrt. wheee! i miss hanging out with them. =) oh well. going to sleep soon. can't take it.
joke of the day:me and crystal were waiting for the train and raffles place. and crystal was sending herself songs from my phone. so i had this "music". many of my friends heard before. and dum was the one who sent me. so the beginning was like the "ar ar ar" sound. so it kinda give you the wrong idea. but it's actually this girl wanting to buy a bowl of noodles. anyway, she had to open the "music" so as to save it. that's how nokia phones work, right? so she opened and the thing was playing damn loudly la. we don't know how to mute it, so she had to off her phone. and we were laughing our heads off. so paiseh la. ><
done blogging.
-all i wanted to do was to forget all the unhappy things.-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:03 AM
Friday, December 29, 2006
wow. third last day of the year 2006, and this will be the third last post for this blog. =) nope. you didn't read or see wrongly. yap. after the last post on 31st dec 2006, this blog, will no longer be in used. haha. i've made a new blog. and it will start on the 1st of 2007. if you want the address, take it from me. =)
ok. woke up like 9.30 a.m though i slept at 2 a.m this morning. i was watching tv. haha. anyway, crystal asked me to work, but i couldn't make it. was supposed to head down to mum's office to help her tonight. but, somehow, she didn't need any more help. so i stayed home.
i spent my entire morning looking for a nice blogskin. and i found one! wheee! haha. then i talked to angel for a while. then i helped him to look for a blogskin too. but seriously, i don't know what kind of pattern he likes. =S and i'm still looking until now. -.-" anyway, it was great talking to angel again. i don't know how long never talk to him le. haha.
i'm not sure if i'm as strong as what i think. but i know that deep down, inside me, i still long for you. and all that i want right this moment, is to be in your arms for the last time. but.. hahas. glad we still can be friends. =)
well well, tml is one of the final days before school reopen. i can't really complain, cause i have to think about those poor children who cannot afford to go to school. =x ok ok. i'll work hard this time, though it's only first three months. but i'll do all that i can to make this a wonderful experience. thus, i won't make the wrong decision. haha. =P ok ok. just stay tune to the other blog then you'll see if i'm enjoying my stay there k? haha. =x
done blogging.
-give me time, and i'll let go soon-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:43 PM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
slept at 12.30 a.m. and i was the last one to sleep again. >< then woke up at 10.30. haha. then i started checking how to go to school. and i realised i need to take mrt to bukit batok then take bus! gosh! means i have to wake up super early! cause i still need to meet xl. -.-"
my tuition teacher came at 11.30. then she talked to us. i told her that i was working at the exhibition for a period of time. and she said not bad. somehow, she and my mum asked me and my sister not to do waitress-ing or be sales person. apparently, she had a student(damn smart, 4 As and 1 B for A lvl), got pregnent. cause she met this guy while working as a waitress. then i was like damn shock. gosh! she went to a uni. but because of this ite guy, she dropped out. kinda stupid la. uni should have better guys, yet she choose an ite guy. and because of that, her future is ruin. gosh! ><
ok ok. went to bugis with sis, my maid and my tutor. she brought us to sakae to eat. then she brought us to swensen to eat earthquake. gosh! haha. ok ok. we met my cousin. so me, my sis and my cousin went to have our nails done. while my tutor and my maid went home. so yap. my nails are.... hmm. had a meh meh painted on both my thumbs. =x cool, huh? haha. then somehow, the things in my bag dropped. and now i lost my ring. -.-" i'm sad la!!! i love that ring, and now it's gone!!! ='(
guess who i saw? i saw this instructor that was helping out at the 3 day motivational camp. i remember his face! cause he was trying to send out a message to us. and so coincidently, i was sitting in front. so he asked my name. and then he say, "let's say, i'm a ugly guy, and i like valerie. and if i asked her to accept me (he asked me if i would accept him, and i shake my head.), and she rejects, i would just walked away and won't ask her ever again. but if i am a handsome and confident guy, and i like valerie. and if i asked her to accept me (he asked me again and i shook my head.), i would keep asking her.". and of course, he kept asking me la. like about 5 times. and yao, shouted "OII!!" from the back. that's funny. then the instructor got a shocked and pretended to be scare. haha. funny. gosh. suddenly miss hanging out with yao. =)
ok. here i am. home. tml will have to help mum at her office. =S maybe saturday night i'm going out with my classmates to eat steamboat. PLEASE DON'T LET IT RAIN!! =x sunday, i have dinner with my family. maybe after that i'll go countdown. that's provided someone asks me. hmms.
gosh! so fast school is starting. and i'm going to have problem waking up. SIAN!! worse! a new year is starting! and i'll be a year older in no time! =( i don't wanna grow. i wanna be just the way i am now. =x *sigh*
done blogging.
-i'm sad! my ring is gone~ ='( nicest ring, and it's gone! *poof* just like that!-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:02 PM
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
there was a blind girl who could not see the world and all she sees is darkness. she swear that if one day, she manages to see the world, she would marry her boyfriend, the guy who is willing to stand by her all these while. one day, some one donates a pair of eyes to her. she manages to see this colourful world and that faithful guy who stands by her. to her horror, he was blind. when he proposed to her, she rejected him. and before he left, he gave her a note, "take care of my eyes."
people no longer keep their promises when their status changed.
after reaing this story, i really realise that there are such people in this world. where by they break their promises when they become richer, or when their positions in the company is higher than before. or when one finds a better partner than the one they are with. now. this really sets you to think that maybe, promises are meant to be broken.
i was home this entire day. i read my old entries again. and realised that i did changed quite alot. i had friends who cared for me so much and always stood by my side when i was down. however, after getting into triple science, we started to grow further apart. and i guess, i'm starting to miss all these friends now. people like doggy and joanna. i will always remember how i met doggy and gave him his nick. while reading some of the entries, i realised that he was always there to cheer me up, care for me and made sure i was perfectly fine. whenever i was lonely, he would accompany me and he was kind enough to accompany me home when i'm alone. haha. i really miss those times. as for nana. ever since early last year, we grew more like stranger. i miss those times when we went out, look at guys, laugh at each other's jokes. how we share our problems and how we gang up to bully mr chan during hcl. i wonder if we could have those days back. hmms.
i spent some time sms-ing crystal. gosh. i really don't understand how can she tolerate how her bf treats her. if i ever have such a bf, i'll really dump him the very next minute. =x ok ok. sorry. i can't stand guys who mistreat their gf. >< i love talking to her. probably because we know each other for 4 years. haha. hmms. i told her about life and stuff. and she gave me some advices. but i guess, i'll be taking this risk for the last time. =)
i started deleting my inbox. some msg was dated all the way till like 1st december. and now it's already 27 dec. so you can imagine the number of sms in my inbox. haha. ok. i kept some and deleted the rest. as i delete them, some memories came into my mind. like xl's msg. haha. cause he had training that day and he can only come to work in the evening. so he msg me during work while on his way. another msg was his msg. i remembered asking a question and he answer me. haha. =x ok. the next was angel's msg. his good night msg was freaking funny la. about alex's sentence. "hao ren bei gou yao". haha. =x finally, sh's msg. how she crapped with me and stuff. of course, not forgetting all crystal's msg. =)
hmms. suddenly wondering what would happen on this new year's eve. suddenly wondering how would i spend my valentines' day next year. suddenly wondering if i would cry when results are released. and even if i cry, other than friends, who will be there to assure me that everything will be fine and that nothing much will change? suddenly, i'm wondering if i can ever learn to walk this path alone. suddenly, i'm wondering if i could keep my promise of waiting for you. cause i remembered that i once told you that i will wait for you no matter what. suddenly, i'm wondering why i don't mind getting hurt just to love you. suddenly, i'm wondering if i would ever have a chance to be back in your arms. suddenly, i'm wondering if you would love me the way you did on june 23. suddenly. i was wondering if would have a chance to be with you again. but i guess it didn't cross your mind that i'll always be right here, waiting for you, missing you, trying to hold you back, and always loving you. hmms. guess some things just happen for a reason, yet reason itself cannot be explained. haha. gosh. i'm thinking alot. *sigh*
nothing in this life is smooth sailing. there are times, when we are at the peak, and there are times, when we are in a pit. there are times, when we fall totally in love and thinking how wonderful and sweet life is. yet, there are times when we fall out of love and we'll start thinking how miserable life is and we'll start complaining we are sick of it. there are times, when we are satisfied with whatever we have in life. yet, there are times we'll be sitting at one corner complaining "if only i had that.." or "if i only i had done that...". there are times when good things happen on others, we'll start thinking "why him/her, not me?". yet when something bad happen on us, we'll start wondering "why does it have to be me?". probably this is life. when every single one of us experience feelings such as jealousy, envy, happiness, saddness, sweet, sour, bitter, regrets, so on and so for.
and i guess, this life of mine, set me thinking about this. life is all about choices. you choose who you want to be. you choose how you want to feel. you choose who you want to be. you choose to complain to or be satisfied. but yet, most of us, will tend to make the wrong choice. that's when jealousy, envious, saddness, bitter, regrets come about.
haha. don't ask me what'd gone into me. and don't ask me where did all those crappy entries go. i guess i've been thinking quite alot these days. HAHA! i know many will not agree with my entry. but this is my blog. so i wish you'll respect it if you want me to respect you. =)
done blogging.
-oopsy! the weirdo meh has just evolved. =P-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:10 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
slept at 4.30 a.m to watch the dvd.
then me and sis woke up at 12.30. after lunch, me, sis and mum continue watching. haha. until now! whee. left 1 last disc. haha. =x
ok ok. this show kinda suits all those girls who are wishing that there will be a guy who would come into their lives and protect, love and care for them. so.. ya. haha. i wished there will be such a guy out there too. hahas. =x
some idiot msg me. asking me to do him a favor. kinda pissed off after reading the msg. but, in the end, i realised that it isn't my friend who send the msg. so i guess, it's useless getting angry. *sigh* then, aloy msg me. ask me if i can help to donate unwanted clothes. erms. hahas. =x crystal msg me too. i kept her accompanied for awhile. yaps. haha. buddy msg me too! haha. oh oh! he said i look nice without spects. geez. =x as for bro. hey! stay happy k? it's useless getting sad over a tree when there are other trees in the forest. =x ok ok. i'm just quoting what you said to me earlier this week. =x
ok ok. home tml. so i guess i'll try to finish my storybook. thursday, i'll be out with my tuition teacher. been so long since i lasted talk to her. guess it was like in june or july? somewhere there. i rmb i was out, and she called me. hahas. so i asked her out this thursday. =D hmms. probably saturday will go for steamboat with my classmates. sunday, should be alone at home to countdown ba. i'm not really expecting anyone to ask me out. haha. what's new? new year at home again. haha. OH OH! must jump! i rmb telling potato that jumpping on new year's day helps to grow slightly taller. haha. =x
ok ok. xl is home. and i guess we are all looking forward to MI. oh oh! i'll watch him drool during school hours soon. haha. ^^
done blogging.
-new year eve's plan will be??-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:39 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
shall elaborate on the entry earlier on in the day.
last night, everyone was offline except a few. jalat kor was online. haha. so i chatted with him from 9.30 p.m till like nearly 2. haha. i was bored. so he played msn games with me. we talked about many things. from friends, to relationships, to studies, to jc and poly, to craps. haha. kinda funny. anyway, kor was kind enough to keep me company till i log off. haha. thanks bro! you rock! hahas.
was suppose to wait for sis to come home so we can open the presents together. but, i couldn't stand it any longer. so i went to bed at about 2.
woke up at 12 in the afternoon. sis woke up 20 minutes later. we opened our presents. hahas. i receive lots of weirdo things this year. but, yeah. haha. after that, we watched GONG. i'm addicted to it. haha. cause that guy acting as YUL is like damn cute! lol. seriously, which girl won't want a guy who loves and care for you? and even if the person you liked treated you that badly, you won't mind. cause you love him/her for who he/she is. and you would have to love him/her for his/her good and bad points. right? haha. ok ok.
after that, we head off to vivo. GOSH! the last time i went there, vivo wasn't that crowded. but today, when i went, i wished i could get out of there. it's freaking crowded. haha. i wanted to treat my family to haagen daz ice cream. but mum ended up paying. =x oh well. haha. and we had a hard time finding it. we were nearly lost la. made one big round before we found it. haha.
guess who i met today? i met 2 of my primary school teacher. they didn't recognise me. cause they taught me when i was in P2. haha. i remember the male. i always see him. and i always recognise him. it reminds me of the time when he was angry. haha. when i was in P2, my entire class was making fun of him. and one of my classmate even ask him why does he look like a panda. yap! he has huge eye bags. awful! =x anyway, there was this day, when he came in. he was freaking angry, that he took the metre ruler and keep hitting on the table until it broke into small pieces. gosh! the next thing i know, he left school. haha. =x
hmm. i realise this christmas is slightly different from last year. haha. last year, i had to rush to finish my homeworks. this year, NO!! haha. cool. =D
ok. photo time.
me. i know i'm zi lian. but just tolerate. this is me!
this christmas tree at vivo. nice. it's pink! =x
me again! without spects.
me! with one of my favourite bear. FOREVER FRIENDS BEAR! cute! hahas.
oh! did i mention about what happened yesterday? ok. i went to make my new spects. and my mum asked if there was any spects suitable for me. and the guy went "erms. there are some spects on offer that suits kids like her." so i was like "kids? me? kid?". and he was like "erms. no. i meant teenagers.".. haha. damn funny. you should have seen his expression. =x ok.
hmm. next week is new year countdown. i wonder if anyone will ask me out. if not, i guess i'll be home alone again. =(
gosh! few more days to school reopen. haha. excited!! but results will be releasing soon. will you take off and go with me? hmms. gosh! another wishful thought. *smack my head* oh well.
done blogging.
-we are all the victim of love-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:25 PM
thanks bro! jalat kor kept me company through my lonely christmas eve night into christmas morning. not physcially, but technically.hopefully today would be a better day.
done blogging.
-23 could have been half a year we are together.-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:29 AM
Sunday, December 24, 2006
today is christmas eve and it's a sunday. so both my parents are home. *yeepee* that's why i didn't dare to go out cause it's family day. haha.
i woke up at like 10 plus. oh! and i had another weird dream. seriously. i'm having lots of weird dream these days. i remember waking up with a weird phrase in mind. but i can't remember it now. gosh. >< oh well. i dreamt of someone(again). i know this person. erms. oh well.
i spent my entire day watching GONG with my family. dad slept half way through the show. so i doubt he knows what is going on. haha. we watched from 11 plus till like 5.30. haha. then mum quickly rush us to change and get ready to go for the family party. and the dinner starts at 5.30 la. haha. so we were like god damn late. haha.
reached there. everyone was playing with little baby. haha. yap. she brought lots of joy to everyone and brought most of our families closer together. haha. we hardly had all these kind of gathering till little girl was born. haha. =) ok. i'm really bad at carrying babies. and she is heavy la. i couldn't carry her cause she is heavy and she kept moving about. haha. today, was my first time eating log cake! haha. durian D24 log cake. lol. so happy!! ^^ haha. after that, we exchange christmas gifts. i receive quite alot. though not as much as baby. haha. even the maids give her things. where is mine?! haha. =x i'm not jealous la. =)
we took lots of family photos. haha. wheee! oh! there was this photo when baby shermaine(my niece's name), was pulling barry's hair. haha. damn cute! and whenever she pulls his hair, she would giggle. that was only the time when we see her smile. haha. funny. i think she likes pulling people's hair. haha. when susan's(kelly's,my eldest cousin,wife) friend came along with her son, they tried to let them play. in the end,shermaine tried to pull his shirt and pulled his hair. haha. everyone was laughing. kelly said he would have a hard time next time. he said shermaine wouldn be his little gangster. haha. cute! =x
we sent sis and my cousin to marine parade. then me, mum and my maid went to optical 88. haha. mum got her new spects and she asked me if i want to make new one. THANKS! i had a hard time picking what i really liked. so i ended up picking one purple one. it's nice. but i'm not exactly sure if it suits me. should be ready next friday or saturday. hopefully, i won't go there alone. =x
here i am. hope alone. sis went out with her friends to countdown. so did my cousin. and i'm all alone. like i said, another ordinary christmas. haha. what's new. i'm used to it. =)
pictures time!
that's me playing sh's phone while waiting for mae and the others to come. taken by sh using my phone.
sh's shoe and my shoe together. i find it very artistic. haha.
me! zi lian-ing again. haha. wei chang said it's a nice photo. =P
this is the SK jewellery christmas tree at bugis there. it's like so freaking nice la! =x
me again! zi lian-ing. haha. i like this green mango top. haha.
look like two glow-in-the-dark rings right? haha. i did a donation yesterday while at esplanade there. one stick for 1 buck. and i had 2 bucks to get rid off. so i donated that 2 bucks in exchange for this. love it. =)
my cute little darling shermaine. haha. love her. =)
my thrid zi lian pic. haha. just took it. some peeps always say i look nicer withot spect. haha. so i'll show you how freaking ugly i look without specks. =x
ok. done with my exhibit. haha.
i'll be going with my family to vivo tml. WHEEE!! haha.
done blogging.
-like another usual christmas. when will christmas ever be a great one?-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:13 PM
woke up like 8.30 by my sis. as promised, i accompanied her and my mum to the specialist. sis had to do a checkup cause she has frequent nose bleed these days. while me, i had to collect my medicine. you know how sian it is? to be on a life time medication? -.-" i'm getting sick of it. =x
went shopping around at taka and had branch at pepper lunch. the food isn't great and it's expensive. >< about 12.30, i left and met sh at borders. she was like in slippers and i was in heels. sians. why did my short heels break at this time?! hope new year faster come. and i can wear my new short heels again. haha. =x ok. she went shopping. and i bought new earrings. =x after that, we rest at this restaurant at cine for a soda fountain. it's nice. =) haha. after that, we walked around. we walked to paragon. and rest again at coffee club. god. i spent alot on food today. hmms. i had black forest cake and ice mocha and a cup of water. then me and sh talked about funny things. haha. after that, went to citylink. she went to buy christmas card for her dad. haha.
i walked to esplanade alone. reached there about 6.15. i was sitting alone(not exactly alone, i kept the ants companied. =x) at the bridge there. i love the scenery from there. haha. i had my earpieces plugged in and on my music loud. i looked at the sky and at the expressway opposite. many things went through my mind. i looked at every couple that walked pass me. oh! and i saw 2 brides. cool. =) one of the groom looked as if he cried. haha. =x ok. there was this foreigner couple that asked me to take a photo for them. gladly, i did. =) haha.
i spent my time quite wisely there. i thought about my life. haha. yeah, studies, relationship, friends, and family. haha. i kinda regretted not studying hard enough for Os. and seriously speaking, if i don't meet the mark, i don't mind retaking this Os. haha. i kinda had the urge to study, suddenly. i love the feeling when i passed my A maths. i love A maths, but sometimes i did so badly that i wished i can give up. but at times, i met my expectations and i'm really proud of it. it's great to have fahmy as A maths teacher. haha. friends. i'm really happy to say that i had many friends whom stood by me when i was feeling sad and constantly encouraging me. =) peeps like joanna, min min, eve, mae, sh, qy, PUAY!, potato and many others. without them, i guess i would have quit school at the age of 14. haha. =x as for family, i know i've let my parents down many times. and i'm always the one they are so worried about. i guess it's time i should stop all my nonsense and to show them that i'm "useful" afterall. haha. =x relationship. i guess i've got nothing to say about it. =)
met him at about 7 plus. i had cravings for beef fries. but the queue was freaking long and i guess, i had to give it a miss. haha. we walked to esplanade. and GOSH! it's really my honor to watched that school's choir. is it acjc? erms. one jc. ok ok. i really know nuts about music though most of my family member learnt music. haha. anyway, i love the way they sing. it's..... ok. the school's choir just left me speechless. MJR's choir can't even reach that standard. =x anyway, it's really an eye opening experience. and the soloist for that christmas song rocks! haha. ok. i miss choir. i miss singing. i miss being soprano. i miss performing on stage(though i have stage fright.). but i really miss being a part of choir. you caught me. hmm. but i know where i stand. come one. i'm only a subsitute during last year's syf competition. how far can i go with singing? haha. i guess not very far. haha. my wish now is to join christmas caroling. but. i guess in singapore, it's not a very IN thing. haha. talking about this, it's been a long time since i last stepped into music room. hmm.
oh well. i wanted to sit outside esplanade again. so we went out. he didn't talk much. and i didn't feel like talking. but i didn't mind. i just love sitting beside him and enjoy every moment of silence. hmm. he still didn't talk much. and i didn't dare to ask him what's in his mind. haha. ok. at least i saw his smile. =x and manage to hear his crap. haha. then walked to raffles mrt station. i kept very quiet. and i guess i made him feel bored. haha. oopsy. =x he took the train with me. but he alighted at kallang. before that, he gave me this weird look. -.-" haha. anyway, thanks for keeping me companied. =) wheee!! =x
done blogging.
i'll tell you what's up with my entry yesterday. ok. i've been missing you all these while. i miss all the times i go out with you. i miss having you by my side. i miss being in your arms and having you to tell me that you don't wanna let me go. but i know all those are memories and i guess it won't really bother to you how much i miss you. but i really hope i'll have a chance to give you an unforgetable birthday celebration. i don't dare to ask from you to give me another chance to be your girlfriend again. cause i feel you deserve a much better girl.
that night, i spent my night thinking about 24 november. it's really sweet of you to come orchard to meet me, to walk to somerset with me and wore button shirt when i asked you to, even though you were running a fever. forgive me for not being understanding. forgive me for not sparing a thought for you.
all these while, you stood by my side. you were being so supportive of my every decision and encourage me when i lose hope. you listened to my complaints whenever i was down. you gave me a pat on my back to assure me that i will be able to achieve what i wanted. and you held my hands to walk through each obstacle. never once you shout at me for being late for an hour. you never complain about me, even though i know i'm a horrible stead. hmm. you did things that maybe no one would have done for me.
i love you.
-nothing special. just another ordinary christmas-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:00 AM
